bakit ganon???

bakit ganon??

..napakalayo ko na sayo pero ikaw pa rin iniisip ko??

maayos na ako ee..

hindi na kita kailangan..

pero hinahanap pa rin kita.. :( :(

may iba na akong kasama..

at sobra nya ako pinapahalagahan..

higit pa sa pagpapahalaga mo sakin nun..

pero sa tuwing kasama ko sya..

sa likod ng isip ko..

may boses na nagsasabing...

"sana ikaw pa rin ang kasama ko..."

..nung tayo pa,

madalas umiiyak ako sa harap mo..

..madalas nasasaktan ako..

madalas nanliit ako sa sarili ko..

ngayong hindi na kita kasama..

..naiiyak pa rin ako..

..dahil hindi na kita makakasama..

..nasasaktan pa rin ako kasi kahit sya na ang kasama ko, ikaw parin ang hinahanap ko..

..ngayon, may nakakita na ng halaga ko..

..di pa rin kita maalis sa isip ko.. :( :(

..naiinis ako..

gusto kong mabuhay ng wala ka na talaga kahit sa isip ko..

bakit di ko magawa.. :(:(

..ayokong makasakit.. pero gusto kong bigyan ng pagkakatao ang sarili ko magmahal ulit..

..pero mas gusto ko parin bumalik sayo.. :( :(

Kris' Love Story

I've seen the worst..

Sacrificed things for unworthy persons..

Loved and failed..

But through it all, He's always been there for me..

Writing my love story..

preparing me for bigger challenges..
allowing me to grow in grace with Him..

I've seen a lot..
and learned a lot..
I failed, stumbled..
I cried..I lose things and even people so dear to me..

But right now, I know my story would be a best seller of all time..
written by my God.. :)
He has mold me into a person I am now..
He gave me my failed relationship to learn from..
to prepare me for a bigger one.. :)

I feel so blessed right now..
Knowing everyone's making me feel special..
..I feel so appreciated..
:)

I feel loved.. :)

is pain worth it?

if having you is waiting.. and waiting is pain..
..then pain is worth having.. :)

I've heard this line several times..
I even get this as a text message..

..in love, a lot of people are sharing their experiences..
..they get hurt..
..they cry..
..they sacrifice a lot..
..they give more than what they should..

if love is about giving..
..and hurting..
where does happiness have to stay??

love is not always about hurting..
..we may be confused nowadays thinking that hurting is just a proof of loving..

..look around..
couples don't hurt each other just to show their love for one another..

..pain comes along with love..
..but pain should not define love..

..i've been through a failed relationship..
..i also thought that if i sacrifice more,
he'd see my worth even more..
..that if i give more, he'd love me even more..

..i may be right..
..but i was also wrong at some point..

you don't have to give everything..
and you should not take everything..

being in a relationship that gives pain even more than happiness..
would not be worth it..
even if he defines your happiness and get hurt in return..

my mom told me a couple of days ago..
"..you should not marry someone just because you're happy or you feel complete having him..
you should think also about your future with him..
are you very certain that happiness comes from pain??
are you that sure that he'd always be your happiness??
are you very sure that he'd always make you feel special??"

i reflected on these words..
and made me think and realize how wrong i was to fight for someone who won't fight for me..
..i realized enough is just enough..
..it made me think that i cannot work on this relationship on my own..
..i need someone who would fight WITH me..
..not that i have to fight for him..

..now.. waiting for him..is not worth it.. :) :)

-failed relationship-

..para sayo..

..mahal kita..

..kahit gago ka, inspirasyon kita..
..kahit sino ka pa, mahal na mahal kita..

..hinding hindi ako susuko sayo..
..kilala kita..
..kahit ano pa ang ipakita mo, i know there's a lot more to it..
..you say that's the real you..
..but you know you are better than that..

..i know there's just that something inside you..
..i love you..
..you know how much i do..

..hanggang ngayon..

Bakit di magawang limutin ka
Bawat sandali'y ika'y naaalala
Tangi kong dasal sa Maykapal
Makapiling kang muli.

Bakit di ko maalis sa isip ko
Ikaw ang laging laman nitong puso ko
Kahit pilitin kong damdamin ay magbago
Ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ko

Hanggang ngayon,
Ikaw pa rin ang iniibig ko
Ikaw pa rin ang natatanging pangarap ko
Ikaw lamang
Hanggang ngayon

Ikaw lang ang tunay na minamahal
Ikaw lang hinihintay
ko ng kay tagal.

Ikaw ang ligaya,
Ang buhay at pag-asa
Ikaw lang, wala ng iba
kaya't

Hanggang ngayon,
Ikaw pa rin ang iniibig ko
Ikaw pa rin ang natatanging pangarap ko
Ikaw lamang
Hanggang ngayon

Dapat ba nating pagbigyan
Ang ating mga puso ay muli pang buksan
At ibibigay ang lahat ang pag-ibig na tapat.
Sa iyo.
Sa iyo.

Hanggang ngayon,
Ikaw pa rin ang iniibig ko
Ikaw pa rin ang natatanging pangarap ko
Hindi ko na kayang mag-isa
Ikaw lamang,
Ikaw lamang,
Ikaw lamang,
Ikaw lamang,
Hanggang ngayon.


..how would

..things are never gonna happen the same way twice..

..things are never gonna happen the same way twice..

..this quote from narnia-prince caspian..

..whether it be bad or good..
..cherish every moment whenever you have the chance..
cause memories would be the only thing you'd be holding on to..

embrace every moment with loved ones..
..though it can never happen again,
you know you made them feel loved..

try and make someone smile today..
..you can never deny the fact that it would come back to you even three times more..

i love it when people tell me they're glad having me in their life..
..it makes me feel important..
..and makes me feel special for having them in my life too.. :) :)

life is not about living in the past..
or regretting things you've done in the past..
it's making the most out of it..

give away smiles.. :) :)
some would just be needing it..

create memories!! :) :)
..find time to hug your friends..
..never miss a chance to say hello to an old friend..
..smile at everyone who passes by.. :) :)

forget the things that hurt you..
it's never going to happen again anyway.. :)

there'll always be that one point in one's life.....

..there'll always be that one point in one's life...

..we shed tears for those who doesn't care..
..we love those who can't love us back..
..we care so much for those who ignore us..
..we give everything to those who won't appreciate..

..we work on things that doesn't work for us..
..we strive on things that fail us..

..we fail people who loves us..
..we ignore people who care..

..there'll always be that one point in one's life..
..that's full of irony..

..this is the point in my life..
..i have to be fine when i'm not..
..i have to be strong when there's nothing left for me..
..i have to move on from someone i don't wanna leave..
..i have to exist when there's no life in me left..
..i have to fight when there's no chance winning..

..there'll always be that one point in one's life..
..when your only choice is to accept the painful TRUTH..
..by......
..LYING to yourself..